January 24, 2013

• sooo

  that whole kpop star thing. maybe it would be more awesomer to find a career for a few years to save up money for me in the future rather than to jump into the kpop scene. but i dunno. what's unmotivating me is the lack of sleep that idols face and I like sleep. I don't think I'm that driven for that so, I think it's best to stick to finishing school and becoming proficient at speaking Korean.

  The last week has been eye-opening ish. Like, seeing friends from my high school grade moving away for jobs and moving on in life. I still feel like I won't be able to move on until I finish school and figuring out my identity and experiencing more things. I want to get into a routine but my routine for the past decade has been just trying to get by and "escape" (via dramas, videos, internet distractions, and stuff) rather than get somewhere. I'm glad to know that if I'm super motivated, I can push into any direction I want. But with the past job experiences, I feel unsatisfied with my work ethic and my goal setting-ness.

  I got to hang out with my friends a lot. I got to try my chlorella pills and calm down my food cravings. I hope to push forward into a healthier diet. I feel the muscle building with the pills & better nutrition! It's so awesome!

  Ugh I want to attract people but I don't look "OH DANG" hot!! I'm also not confident at the club! That means It's time to work! lol.. like.. work out and eat healthier and get more sleep, I've been using Aveeno for my eczema and it's getting kewww. 

  uhoh, i need to do p90x tom morning. good thing anielle is kicking us out.

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  interesting convos about abortion & euthanasia and adoption. i like these adult conversations

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