May 16, 2012

• meh

  i'm tired of winging lessons & not doing hw on time T_T. i had a flashback on the bus to work today. it was alaska when i was moved to a different machine which cut fillets in half. but i was new and at the end where they had to be stacked and cut properly. omfg the first 2 days were hell. 15 hours of the stacks getting messed up and me stacking shit wrong and it getting cut funkily.

  i learned in alaska that shit happens and i just gotta keep going. whatever mini break of rest i could take i could. i didn't stand around food during break time, i took a mini 10minute nap on the bench cuz it was always 5 or 6 hours of painful sleep.

  i'm taking shit for granted again.

  luckily...
  i got to transfer to a university that took me. i got accepted into korea the last minute. I failed so many classes and still am a student. @_@. i got through the first crazy semester in korea with unruly students living in a place where i didn't know the language or really have anyone close to get along with. on top of this, my mom isn't nagging me anymore & i have my own apartment that has so much paid for & utilities are effing cheap.

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  FAWKKKING PAPERS. MY PROCRASTINATION ISSUES. you'd think I'd learn by now. at least how to control triggers & get stuff done. i only have flashbacks of moments when I finished papers at some random city in a burger king or starbucks. not many memories of finishing homework early. gotta dig for those. create new habits. meh.

  ugh. they say that you shouldn't base your happiness for an accomplishment that will happen later in life and it's best to try to find a way to be happy everyday. T_T.

  bad habits.

  right now i'm making perfectionist excuses "i can't make it right. what if i do it wrong?" but i have to start to do it wrong first. P= 아... 진짜..
  maybe it's cuz i haven't been working out & my mind is all blocked.

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