November 12, 2012

• this is

  This is when i look back and see,
  What it used to be

  This is when i look back and feel,
  As if it were real

  This is when i think of you
  When my hopes and desires come true

  But..

  Right now I realize,
  That it was all lies

  Right now I let go,
  Of every bit of you I know

  Right now I look away,
  So that I can see the light of a new day

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  I want you but I can't have you,
  What do I need to prove?

  Can I eventually be worthy of your touch?
  I guess I'm not much.

  When that time comes will you seek me,
  Or will I still not be enough?

  Or will time pass so that I forget,
  How much I thought I needed your gaze..

  Or maybe you will forget about me,
  After all the time that will pass?

  What I know is that you won't leave my mind as of yet,
  And that this silence between us won't leave.

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  Am I just not busy enough or stressed out?
  The ins and outs of loneliness come around.

  Do we really need someone special in our lives?
  Or can our lifestyle distract this feeling?

  There are so many others but you attract me the most,
  What could it be that continues to pull at me?

  Is it because you of your qualities that make you stand out?
  Or that I can't attract you, making you seem hard to get?

  The chase can be almost as fun as the catch,
  But how long can a person wait if they have only put one foot forward in the race?

  Is it even worth it in the long run?
  It's like counting how many licks it takes to get to the center if a tootsie pop.

  The world will never know.

  • 11:32 am
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