June 8, 2013

  • we won't

    Struck by your face
    you keep me in a daze

    a smile so innocent
    a body to torment

    hidden secrets revealed
    we keep our lips sealed

    a meeting unexpected
    a friendship to be regretted

    if only i was ready for it
    if only i was prepared for it

    good timing was never a thing
    always a slight miss every swing

    a perfect game can't be had
    i guess i can't get too

    eyes towards the prize
    gotta consult the wise

    i'll be ready for the next time
    then i can call that person mine

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    sigh.. i met a korean girl. she's been in the states and speaks fluent english and might even be staying here longer if she doesn't get accepted into her grad program.

    she's super attractive. damn, she's so hot when all dressed up w/ out her glasses. omfg.
    and she's got so much experience. (yeah, she's older). can you say "누나 너무 예뻐?!"(noona nomoo yeppo.. that shine song) lol..

    but she's christian (dunno what kind) and is going out with someone in the states and might be leaving to go back if she's accepted.

    but we're good friends now. sucks, i got friend zoned. but i mean, i told her everything about my relationships and private details. but she's so awesome that she listened to it all!! wtf! i wish i could marry this chick! haha oh well.

    oh well, hopefully the attraction wares away. i mean, i got friend zoned. maybe it'll go away when i see her in her glasses again and looking normal and like she's my older sister.

    and, i'm looking for someone not religious but still understanding of religion.

    so, i guess right now for a serious relationshp i want a girl that's:

    not filipino
    probably korean
    shorter than me

    not too picky about food
    can do spicy food
    not really into sports (cuz i'm not) but doesn't mind playing for fun once in a while :P
    pretty (derr)
    not girly-girly
    maybe -bi / open
    has some kind of artsy hobby
    isn't working in the medical field
    probably majored in something scientific (B.S. or M.S.)
    probably not religious (iono, i still have to contemplate this.. i mean church every sunday can't be too bad but freaking like, i have flashbacks of Sunday mass at the catholic church. I HATED IT SO BAD. I AVOID IT. I GET FIDGITY EVEN DURING XMAS MASS. I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT. WHAT A WASTE OF TIME. INCLUDING CCD (sorta like religion) class?! WTH. I mean, I got to bond with Cheryl and Cat but still..
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    Don't u hate when u meet someone and u think they're just perfect? I don't wanna fall into that illusion anymore. I'm trying to get the balance and figuring out what matters to me most in a serious relationship but I still don't know exactly what I want in life. Would I be ok marrying b4 30? Do I want kids? Do i want kids my own blood? Would I adopt? Would I do both? Would I live in the states? How can I possibly support my family? (Or at least make enough money so that money isn't a problem in the relationship?)
    Boo, I'm still exploring. At least I'm honest that I'm not ready for something serious. Even though it's something that I eventually want. At least I know that I want something. Just gotta figure out what else I want.
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    But damn, she's so pretty when dolled up. holy. shit. 

    But I get to friend-zone her too. right? =P Guys can just be friends LOL. doesn't mean I don't think she's attractive tho :P . LoL.

    but, what turns me off is her probably scary Korean dad that wants someone who graduated from a top school or something with a high paid job, and the fact that I would need to participate in religious traditions again that I don't personally appreciate @_@;; and that's christian. but in korea, they go to service during the week too. o_O;; lol and lots of those christians don't drink "cuz of their religion". the asian dramas don't exaggerate that much when it comes to certain korean-christians. lol....
    there's other fish in the sea, i'm just admiring this really kewl one that i've passed by.. cuz i'm a fish too. i need to go to the fish gym and make myself over. 
    --personality, career, education, appearance, sociableness.. damn, i got lots of work for myself to go under. i guess the only good part of me is that i care about my friends / family, am ambitious, and that i try to be honest... :P most of the time if it's not my mom. LOL.
    -bubble bubble-