June 19, 2013

  • the easy life

    i don't think i'm teaching much this week or even next week cuz they're prepping for the "english festival" and learning songs so all after school stuff (lately has been cancelled).

    last week i was told to teach the kids a song. i didn't know why so i scrapped that the day after cuz they weren't learning the hokey pokey well. 
    i come in today and am told by my mentor teacher that there's an english festival next week and that i was told by the 1st grade teacher to teach the kids a song for it. i freaked.
    i didn't know what song was easy. i thought of 5 monkeys in the bed. or 10 in the bed. tried 10 in the bed today in class but it failed cuz it's too long. i finally found a song after class but now i think the science teacher (who sometimes helps out / co-teaches-ish-not really) is teaching them a different song.
    i feel bad and useless lol. but i don't really have to do shit. but i feel like a waste of money by staying in this program sometimes.. a lot of the time. the school is nice. the kids are kewl (though of course, kids and hard to handle). it's just me. i'm so not meant for this lol. i wouldve probably quit already cuz i feel like i'm not making a difference. oh well, at least i show up to teach and i don't take days off and yeah...
    soooooooo ready to finish my degree and get another job.
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    but that's just me. people have shitty ass jobs with people they hate despite the huge amounts of work they put into their job. i'm living the easy life. i just don't like that i don't feel like i'm making any difference to the kids after being here for so long. sure, their pronunciation is better and i guess more vocab and cultural stuff (cooking or whatever). . . but i feel like it's never enough. 
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    i'm gonna go study korean now, with all this free time I have... lol. i mean, for the last almost 2 years, i never had to teach them an english song for english festival. LoLLL. my other friend had to. and she had to prepare student work for an "open house". damn, i had it good at this school. LOLLLLLLL. i hope i don't get credit from the parents cuz of the song they're performing. then again, i wonder what the parents thing of the english festivals of the past almost two years. i didn't really aid in those. ㅎㅎ
    I just wanna make a difference and feel it too <_<;; =P