Month: June 2013

  • overextending non-existing schedule, money + transition

    buying a car. i can't take it anymore. i despise public transportation. gas is expensive. but i just want a day or two or three of commuting by myself. i miss my car. I miss not having to wait for stopovers. i miss being to leave whenever the hell i want.

    with my car, i'll be sure to appreciate the economical prices of taking the bus in korea. but i want both. GODDAMIT I WANT MY ROAD TRIPS lol. 
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    and, i'm broke. i'm asking my mom for 6k LOL. the car is costing me around 2k...
     cuz the car is around 2k and the insurance is like 300bucks for 3 months-ish. (cheaper if I paid all at once for a year but, i don't have the funds for :P atm.. only enough for the car and stuff)...
    2.5k - dorms (it includes 180 meals i believe).. last me 6 months
    2.5k - tuition for university (unlimited classes)
    1k - help me to survive for a month or two in korea
    ..until the money rains.
    i get my flight reimbursement around 1.3k and my paycheck.. around 1.5k .. so just around 2.5k usd next month.
    my friend owes me 1k.
    i'll have around 3.5k or 4k, depending how much i have left in my bank account.
    but like, 2.5k goes to the university for the korean language program tuition. so i only have like 1k left -__-;; .. which my friend hasn't even paid back yet. (non of u guys, a friend here), cuz she's tight on money.
    damnit car! but i spent a month and a half obsessing over it and wasting time. i just want it done and out of the way!!! I remember getting my tiburon, all those months of dying on the inside for my own new car.
    now i can finally have a car. it's kinda ugly. daewoo rezzo. u can google it. it looks like an egg. but the fuel is real cheap (For korea).. probably $4/$5 per gallon of LPG (liquid petroleum gas)... propane. gasoline is like $8/gallon-ish here. it's in liters. not gallons lawlllllllllllllllllll.
    but i mean, korea is small. they don't drive that far during the week. but still, at least i bring it back down to california gas prices with an LPG car. it's only like a $1/liter~ish. 
    i think the car will give me more of a life & freedom. 
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    so.. money will probably rain the end of july. i hate when money fluctuates with transitions and stuff.
    g*dammit, i have to go to the embassy and extend my visa. twice. -___________-;; 
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    money.. accounts...investments..
    for the long-term, i've been opening accounts.
    got like a credit union and a regular bank account. i'ma open a brokerage account w/ a linked checking in the future. fidelity and charles schwab have unlimited free atm withdrawals from any atm worldwide and free incoming transfers. I wish they'd have free domestic wire transfers so i can wire money to u guys or others that need money :P . oh well, i still have my wells fargo account to do that. 
    hopefully by the time i'm 25, i'm done with school, almost done paying off all my debt, and starting to fund a retirement account while trying on some businesses here and there.
    right now it's school & drinking LOL. I see people in their late- 20's slowing down and wanting to get married so, i don't needa worry about overly accessive drinking in the future. But I have to crack down on my hanging out.
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    there's nothing to do here. if i say i'm busy, it's a lie! lol..once i move to the city, i can become fully korean and say that i'm always busy! My only party day will be friday night. I'll be too busy during the week for Korean & finishing my degree. I'm pushing for staying in the dorms so I can focus more. If I live alone, I don't get ANY shit done AT ALL. Too easy to slack! I don't trust myself, lol.
    I'll have easy access to the library, a built in gym, and Korean friends to practice Korean. Plus those meals, I can be lazy and not spend so much on food. I can just have a shake and kimbap/omelettes and that one mail meal from the cafeteria cuz i don't have space to store food. 

    I was so lucky with my fridge here, lollll. full size. lots of other TaLK people have like college-sized mini fridges. o_O;;

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    p.s.
    Friday is apparently always Anielle's party day. lol i mean drinking day. I don't get why she doesn't Xanga anymore. She's having helluva better time in her first 6months than I did!! Freakin she's only a train away from Daegu or Busan! SCREW THE SEOUL PERSPECTIVE! lol...  I'M SO FUCKING JEALOUS. LoL. AND she has the peace and quiet of a rural surrounding. WTF MAN. GET ME OUTTA HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

  • sentimental /life changing events

    freaking out and happy but..more of freaking out cuz i only have a month left and i will be moving. Working on the paperwork.

    It's been a long journey. I dunno what to say. I feel unprepared for what's next. Lol. Fawkkk real life after degree.

    Fawkkk, what if my dreams dont come out the way i want them too? Oh well. That always happens, no? :P

  • dating

    I've been hearing things about Korean girls here lol. It makes me to not wanna go out with them. Especially for the huge push for marriage once they reach a certain age. Maybe if theyre foreigner-enough. For gyopo (oversees korean). ㅠㅠ but i like speaking korean. Will this just be a phase too? Like other things?

  • the easy life

    i don't think i'm teaching much this week or even next week cuz they're prepping for the "english festival" and learning songs so all after school stuff (lately has been cancelled).

    last week i was told to teach the kids a song. i didn't know why so i scrapped that the day after cuz they weren't learning the hokey pokey well. 
    i come in today and am told by my mentor teacher that there's an english festival next week and that i was told by the 1st grade teacher to teach the kids a song for it. i freaked.
    i didn't know what song was easy. i thought of 5 monkeys in the bed. or 10 in the bed. tried 10 in the bed today in class but it failed cuz it's too long. i finally found a song after class but now i think the science teacher (who sometimes helps out / co-teaches-ish-not really) is teaching them a different song.
    i feel bad and useless lol. but i don't really have to do shit. but i feel like a waste of money by staying in this program sometimes.. a lot of the time. the school is nice. the kids are kewl (though of course, kids and hard to handle). it's just me. i'm so not meant for this lol. i wouldve probably quit already cuz i feel like i'm not making a difference. oh well, at least i show up to teach and i don't take days off and yeah...
    soooooooo ready to finish my degree and get another job.
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    but that's just me. people have shitty ass jobs with people they hate despite the huge amounts of work they put into their job. i'm living the easy life. i just don't like that i don't feel like i'm making any difference to the kids after being here for so long. sure, their pronunciation is better and i guess more vocab and cultural stuff (cooking or whatever). . . but i feel like it's never enough. 
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    i'm gonna go study korean now, with all this free time I have... lol. i mean, for the last almost 2 years, i never had to teach them an english song for english festival. LoLLL. my other friend had to. and she had to prepare student work for an "open house". damn, i had it good at this school. LOLLLLLLL. i hope i don't get credit from the parents cuz of the song they're performing. then again, i wonder what the parents thing of the english festivals of the past almost two years. i didn't really aid in those. ㅎㅎ
    I just wanna make a difference and feel it too <_<;; =P

  • I FOUND THE educational GOLDMIND (for me)

    http://extended.nau.edu/Degrees/204/Intelligence+Studies+BAS.html

    $2500 / semester.
    Unlimited classes.
    Accredited.
    3 majors to choose from (all B.A.s):

    Computer Information Technology
    Liberal Arts
    Small Business Administration

    ... I don't care about degrees. I just need my bachelors and I'm done!! GET ME OUT OF THE EDUCATIONAL RAT RACE. I JUST WANNA WORK AND STACK MONEYYYY. (And learn about other things on my own timmeee).

    I'm just gonna choose Liberal Arts. See if hella of my classes can transfer. And Even if not, it's only $2500 for a semester! I can just cram hella classes from now till the end of next year.

    @ $212/credit, it would cost me $12,000 for another 60 credits.  If I do this option, I can do a year and a half for like only $7500 w/ out the stuuuuuuuuuupid registration fees or waiting for classes to open up.
    My mom agreed she'd pay for my tuition. I'm gonna see if I can mail info to her house.

    Then, I can come back to Korea after chillin in Hawaii next fall w/ a job! This'll be so awesome. Life just got way better for me~!

  • car

    I WANT MY CAR!!!

  • mmmmh

    Degree. So many jobs abroad with it and my citizenship. I'm so sad. I wanna stack money and fulfill my dreams and be debt free.

  • attendance

    i wrote the attendances wrong -_-;;. maybe i shoulda just wrote the kids names in and photo copied 'em. i already made 10 copies tho. i don't want th vice principal to think i'm wasting hella paper lol.

    just.. writing their names in korean takes a million years for me. lol.
    anyway. thinking about that girl again. lame. 
    back to my pomodoro and updating my saturday class's attendance. hopefully by tonight, i'll finish all this paperwork & my friend can help me for the next TOPIK test so I can get more focused with my Korean. been slacking for two months. 

    But, I'm reading this manwha and it reminds me of the love hina manga days, lol. this one is in a highschool though. but with enough action, awkwardness, and perviness to keep me reading, lol. after finishing this manhwa, i guess i'll start watching that kdrama so i can work on my listening skills.

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    more serious questions and topics.
    i'm kinda glad I didn't go after some random major in music or language or that stuff. (though, i haven't finished much of my degree due to degree hopping). i don't have enough passion in that. my thing is, even if i do finish my degree and get a good job at an export company or document editing at an engineering firm, or even just go back to teaching making hella dough... i still wish I had a passion. I have so many things to try but I haven't given them a chance. 

    I still want some forms of expression in..

    sports
    arts
    music.
    the thing is, i see some teachers here that didn't pursue something related to their degree/passion and ended up teaching..haha. i read a thing that there's a sports major that korean guys go after when they dream of becoming a soccer player. dunno if that's true about the coffeeshop dude, but his major was in something sports-related and he's working in his sister's coffeeshop like 7 days a week from like 6am to 10pm (and he finishes cleaning by 11 or 12). Sometimes, I feel like she opened it up just for him to work...lol.
    ...
    Would you ever give up pursuing a passion for love? I mean, the longer you're with the person, the longer you have to work things out. we don't always have to have a bite of all of the cake as long as we enjoy most of it? right? :P .. .hahaha. 
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    guess i can do something with my youtube channel.
    also, i'm having more interest in learning portuguese. i don't have to learn a new alphabet-per se and it just sounds awesome! i've always wanted to learn another european language but nothing appeals to me like portuguese.  

    I like it cuz, it's a language with many dialects around the world (south america, africa, asia (macau, malaysia) .. i don't know much about the culture and haven't experienced it first hand, and it could be useful in the future. it's kind of the mysterious-kewl language that i wanna look into. 

    i still wanna learn chinese but man, all that work for the tones & characters? i'm not ready yet. maybe when i'm 30. I also wanna learn persian. I've always wanted to look into a middle eastern language and the fact that iran is sorta isolated is appealing to me. I like forbidden things.. LoL. Like how I wanna go to southern Philippines.. but probably just Davao where it's "safer?" Iono. dude.

  • oh yeahh/ohhh noooo~

    I got my driver's license!!! Time to go on road trips~!!!

    Lol.

    On a side note, i slept in the jimjilbang. It wasnt the best sleep. I had a mini nightmare where the girl i have a crush on told me to stop like hugging her / and embracing her cuz she has a boyfriend. Lol.

    I've never dreamt about anyone like that. Lol. I mean, irl, she does have a boyfriend. But i wont say anything and hopefully my crush goes away by the time i move or if she goes back to the states. At the moment i'm finding things unnattractive -friendzoning- about her to make it stop lol. It's mean but :P . I dont think itll stop. It seems i will always have some kind of emotions to someone cuz of iono lol. Attachment issues? I always wanna be with someone even though im not ready for anything serious? Iono lame. I think i just got too much tine on my hands. I dont think of her when working but when i have time.. like on the bus or b4 i sleep or something, she pops up. That happens with most people i might have a thing for i guess :P . Help me~

  • we won't

    Struck by your face
    you keep me in a daze

    a smile so innocent
    a body to torment

    hidden secrets revealed
    we keep our lips sealed

    a meeting unexpected
    a friendship to be regretted

    if only i was ready for it
    if only i was prepared for it

    good timing was never a thing
    always a slight miss every swing

    a perfect game can't be had
    i guess i can't get too

    eyes towards the prize
    gotta consult the wise

    i'll be ready for the next time
    then i can call that person mine

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    sigh.. i met a korean girl. she's been in the states and speaks fluent english and might even be staying here longer if she doesn't get accepted into her grad program.

    she's super attractive. damn, she's so hot when all dressed up w/ out her glasses. omfg.
    and she's got so much experience. (yeah, she's older). can you say "누나 너무 예뻐?!"(noona nomoo yeppo.. that shine song) lol..

    but she's christian (dunno what kind) and is going out with someone in the states and might be leaving to go back if she's accepted.

    but we're good friends now. sucks, i got friend zoned. but i mean, i told her everything about my relationships and private details. but she's so awesome that she listened to it all!! wtf! i wish i could marry this chick! haha oh well.

    oh well, hopefully the attraction wares away. i mean, i got friend zoned. maybe it'll go away when i see her in her glasses again and looking normal and like she's my older sister.

    and, i'm looking for someone not religious but still understanding of religion.

    so, i guess right now for a serious relationshp i want a girl that's:

    not filipino
    probably korean
    shorter than me

    not too picky about food
    can do spicy food
    not really into sports (cuz i'm not) but doesn't mind playing for fun once in a while :P
    pretty (derr)
    not girly-girly
    maybe -bi / open
    has some kind of artsy hobby
    isn't working in the medical field
    probably majored in something scientific (B.S. or M.S.)
    probably not religious (iono, i still have to contemplate this.. i mean church every sunday can't be too bad but freaking like, i have flashbacks of Sunday mass at the catholic church. I HATED IT SO BAD. I AVOID IT. I GET FIDGITY EVEN DURING XMAS MASS. I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT. WHAT A WASTE OF TIME. INCLUDING CCD (sorta like religion) class?! WTH. I mean, I got to bond with Cheryl and Cat but still..
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    Don't u hate when u meet someone and u think they're just perfect? I don't wanna fall into that illusion anymore. I'm trying to get the balance and figuring out what matters to me most in a serious relationship but I still don't know exactly what I want in life. Would I be ok marrying b4 30? Do I want kids? Do i want kids my own blood? Would I adopt? Would I do both? Would I live in the states? How can I possibly support my family? (Or at least make enough money so that money isn't a problem in the relationship?)
    Boo, I'm still exploring. At least I'm honest that I'm not ready for something serious. Even though it's something that I eventually want. At least I know that I want something. Just gotta figure out what else I want.
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    But damn, she's so pretty when dolled up. holy. shit. 

    But I get to friend-zone her too. right? =P Guys can just be friends LOL. doesn't mean I don't think she's attractive tho :P . LoL.

    but, what turns me off is her probably scary Korean dad that wants someone who graduated from a top school or something with a high paid job, and the fact that I would need to participate in religious traditions again that I don't personally appreciate @_@;; and that's christian. but in korea, they go to service during the week too. o_O;; lol and lots of those christians don't drink "cuz of their religion". the asian dramas don't exaggerate that much when it comes to certain korean-christians. lol....
    there's other fish in the sea, i'm just admiring this really kewl one that i've passed by.. cuz i'm a fish too. i need to go to the fish gym and make myself over. 
    --personality, career, education, appearance, sociableness.. damn, i got lots of work for myself to go under. i guess the only good part of me is that i care about my friends / family, am ambitious, and that i try to be honest... :P most of the time if it's not my mom. LOL.
    -bubble bubble-