I'm so jealous. LOTS of foreigners get accepted into Korean universities w/ HELLA TUITION DISCOUNTS. lol. Thing is, not all of them are accredited internationally. Hmm. Anyway, I just wanna flash degrees anyway. 

After TaLK, I wanna focus on studying Korean. There's two universities I'm considering..

One in Daegu and one in Sokcho. Daegu is the 3rd largest city and Sokcho is a small but really nice area.

Yeongnam University in Daegu..
http://kli.yu.ac.kr/kli/e_sub02_a.htm

Kyeongdong University in Sokcho..
http://k1.ac.kr/nationaleng/index.php?pCode=1332826385

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T_T sometimes I wanna just transfer to a Korean university cuz IT'S SO CHEAP FOR FOREIGNERS. 

But people like American degrees .

that a TaLK friend I know has so many Korean friends! Well, it's cuz she's a girl and a foreigner and this country is default sausage-fest country LOLL. 

Getting all appreciative and happy again. I passed a kindergartener before heading to teacher volleyball and he said "신발" .. shinbahll, the korean word for shoes. We paused and i pointed and said, "yes, shoes~" and he said "shoes" so perfectly i wanted to jump up and down lol. Hearing the kindies speak properly is so rewarding and they're sooo cute!!! Lol. (We've been going over clothing vocabulary for like a couple of weeks now. But i only see them twice a week).

And today, the team i played volleyball with won! Finally-- i always curse the team i'm on

i met you a long ways back,
it was very uncertain and strange

i've never met anyone like you until now
and it's been a journey from the start

we've grown and learned together,
but as time passes our lives change

it will continue to be a series of ups and downs
till it's time to move onto something new

i want to let you know how much we've change,
the little steps we took that snowball into something new

that with each step upwards it may get harder,
but we can stop to take a look back and see how far we've gone

take care and please don't forget me,
we will always have memories to share

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http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Hate-Workplace-Bullying/2708250?utm_campaign=newsletter284&utm_source=newsletter&utm_medium=email&email_id=44866163

here's post about bullying in the workplace lol. it's interesting. have a read at the comments! really interesting. do you have bullying experiences at the workplace?

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i'm considering appying for that boston consulting internship. >_< I don't think I'm going to extend my contract for next winter's term.

BUT. I DON'T WANNA GO "HOME."

SO, I'll try to see if I can land an internship & also get into a Korean university to work on my Korean. Then, maybe I can go home or stay in the Philippines or something LOL. I just want to work cheaply while finishing school.

BUT I DON'T WANNA GO "HOME." Korea is still my home at the moment.

This is when i look back and see,
What it used to be

This is when i look back and feel,
As if it were real

This is when i think of you
When my hopes and desires come true

But..

Right now I realize,
That it was all lies

Right now I let go,
Of every bit of you I know

Right now I look away,
So that I can see the light of a new day

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I want you but I can't have you,
What do I need to prove?

Can I eventually be worthy of your touch?
I guess I'm not much.

When that time comes will you seek me,
Or will I still not be enough?

Or will time pass so that I forget,
How much I thought I needed your gaze..

Or maybe you will forget about me,
After all the time that will pass?

What I know is that you won't leave my mind as of yet,
And that this silence between us won't leave.

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Am I just not busy enough or stressed out?
The ins and outs of loneliness come around.

Do we really need someone special in our lives?
Or can our lifestyle distract this feeling?

There are so many others but you attract me the most,
What could it be that continues to pull at me?

Is it because you of your qualities that make you stand out?
Or that I can't attract you, making you seem hard to get?

The chase can be almost as fun as the catch,
But how long can a person wait if they have only put one foot forward in the race?

Is it even worth it in the long run?
It's like counting how many licks it takes to get to the center if a tootsie pop.

The world will never know.

Geron's eldest sister's wedding is like in two weeks.

But I couldn't get a day off. I could try again. BUt..

it's $1000 to fly back & forth. I'd leave Thursday night from korea and arrive thursday night in SFO.

BUT that's expensive.
BUT, IT'S A ONE-TIME OCCURANCE kinda thing.
BUT, I have plans that weekend.

BUT, I could use that money instead for New Zealand that I also said I would go to.

BUT, I'm having financial aid issues for my tution cuz $*%*#.

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I feel like an idiot.

i transfered. accepted into weber state university in utah. mostly, i wanted to be able to finish classes on my own time. that means, i have to pay for my classes & have my financial aid kick in after I finish it -_-;; i don't know how that works but i feel like i'm going to have to be exercising more for fun & drinking more liquids to prevent myself from spending money on extra food. T_T;;

I spent a lot of winter-izing up. blanket: 50k, boots: 50k.. not to mention the energy.

meeehhh.
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anyway, here's an article about feeeling an adult

http://www.guardian.co.uk/lifeandstyle/2012/nov/03/turning-40-am-i-grownup

You wake up everyday
thinking it's gonna be okay

Left with images of yesterday
Nothing you can do or say

You scream and shout and send them away
But thoughts keep lingering and keep you at bay

It's never too late to let go
Thoughts can go as fast as they come

It's time move on
The signs are clear

That you don't have time to give
That your time isn't yours anymore when it's lost

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Anyway, some realization is hitting (sorta relatioinship-related) like.. and life related. You can't take a good memory and assume it can happen again. It won't be the exact same as in the past. It can be worse, it can be a million times better. BUt it won't be the same. And when you realize that you can't go back, that it's just a memory, then you can move on. BEcause who you are today is not the same person as you were before. And who are you are tomorrow may reflect upon your past but it won't define you as such if you don't let it--by working on yourself right now.

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Lalala thoughts.

TI'm not done exploring (lol). I want to be a well-rounded and cultured individual.There are so many things I want to experience! But as I get thrown into an experience, I might get so involved that I try to run away lol. I want to focus and take things day by day rather than freaking out about what I don't need to worry about at the moment.

Anyway, there are some internships that I want to experience in my lifetime.

I'm on the verge of finishing TaLK. It'll be 1.5 years towards January. :O~!! TIme flies..

I want that >>Ayn Rand Institute<< to understand Objectivism. (I've always wanted to find some type of philosophy.. kinda like how people have a religion to follow. It would be nice to share an ideology with people & have something to share and discuss. http://www.bcg.co.kr/careers/is_bcg_for_me/internships/default.aspx

I always wonder what it would be like in the business world & traveling and meeting clients and working in some "big name" or kewl sounding firm.

The >>BCG (Boston Consulting Group internship<< sounds so kewl! http://www.bcg.co.kr/careers/is_bcg_for_me/internships/default.aspx

>>>Teach and Learn with Georgia<<< like TaLK! Haha, except in Eastern Europe. I've always wanted to check out Eastern Europe . http://www.tlg.gov.ge/ To be surrounded by non-Asians. LOL. & non-americans. They don't pay much though but it sounds fun and an awesome experience.

Hopefully I'll find more awesome stuff in Central & Southern USA, Northern Europe, Africa (maybe east coast), and the Southern Countries of South America. Like Argentina or Paraguay. And just touch the Middle East .

Then, I'll be okay to move back home. LOL.

In the beginning of this teaching thing, i swear i wanted out so many times. The kids weren't listening, I was new to the area... I didn't have many friends. Now, things are way more chill than usual. (Mabye cuz it's fall and not spring, when i teach a lot more.)

I'm getting more lazy and taking things for granted again and not putting in as much effort as I was earlier.

Guess it's time to spice things up.

Maybe that's how it worlds in relationships too...lol. Things aren't too bad but something's missing P= ~

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I'm getting over things finally cuz I made a conscious decision to improve myself. I think that making time to spend with others helps and stuff.

I wish I had some social aspect to my life everyday. "Hanging out" or talking to someone on the phone. HMm, guess I gotta make time for that. ANd writing letters.