May 9, 2013

  • drinking last night

    I have a drinking strategy now lol.

    Predrinking- hydrate, nourish. I eat a little and drink like a liter of water. I also take a chlorella pill or two

    Drinking stage- I try to stick to one form of alcohol like soju or beer. ( mostly soju). Gotta take my time drinking.

    Post-drinking - drink a little water, and have more chlorella pills lollll. I'd try to replenish my noutrition with some spicy ramen full of meat and veggies but.. I usually pass out on the bed lawlll.

    Either way, it usually all fails. Like, I don't eat beforehand cuz there's no time and we're goig out to dinner so I'm not prepared.. then somehow, we have somebody that causes everyone to drink wayyyy too fast. Then, I drunk call, facebook, or blog.

    Hahaha.

    Omg but last nught (7 hours ago), my friend and I ran away. LOL. I feel like it's gonna be our new thing. We're trying to be responsible teachers! Jk.

    But we were at a bar eating chicken with the others. Everything was fine. I lost titanic twice but I was okay cuz I actually prepared for our session. King's cup was also fun cuz we had a rule where if she talked, nobody else could talk while she was talking. Hahaha.

    But then the second place, we were seated next to a table of former-gangster navy korean guys and the drinking got accelerated. Omg...

    Soju cocktail after straight soju shot after food. I was getting so full but that bar pizza was sooooo good, I'm such a fat.

    So my friend and I decided to escape. We lied and said we needed to go to the bathroom (we sat by the wall of the booth). And hella just bounced. Turned a lil left towards the bathroom (cuz we were next to it) but quickly swerved back right again into the other aisle to avoid them seein us and power walking our asses outta the door. Lmao.

    Omg, I'ma miss this stuff. Of course I fell asleep with the lights on and woke up early. It's like alcohol clockwork.

    Anyway, so two of them are extending their contact 6 more months, lol, so I'll probably end up visiting taean sometimes. I also have two Epik teacher friends that are staying till next year. Err.. most of the epiks are staying and extending.

  • so like

    Sometimes ... err, a lot of the time, I feel like I haven't grown up. I characterize growing up as no fun, limited alcohol, loneliness, no parties, everyone busy all the time with no time for anything.

    But I guess our interpretation of fun might change and we may appreciate the time we have to rest, as we get older.

    Oh well, I'm 20 only once. Gotta try a bunch of things just once. I'd regret it later if I didn't do all the things I wanted to try when I was younger.

    I mean, I have a list of things to try out when I get older too. Like, raising a kid, working in a public office position, learning more languages.

    One thing I'm afraid of though, is marriage/ settling down. Totally not ready. I'm afraid of divorce and getting bored. I hope I party and date so much that I'd eventually want to get into somethig serious later.
    I feel like people get divorced around their 40's, or mid-life crisis age. That they didn't experience enough of life and that they didn't prepare enough for the commitment. I know that the first obstacle I wanna work on first is the money problem. As for the getting bored part... hmm. Dunno.

    Sounds like something I'd wanna try when I'm older.

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    Anyway, back to the not feeling like an adult part. Basically, I don't feel like an adult also cuz I didnt finish my degree. Since highschool was my most recent long-term educational achievement, I feel ungrounded. All these freakin jobs waiting for me and I can't have them. At least I'm making friends and expandin my personal network but what about my professional network? I thinkni needa finally use LinkedIn and start playing that game now.

  • oh man

    slept at 7am. But i did hella shit like

    Reorganize the kitchen, clean the fridge, got rid of old food, swept up all the dust bunnies from my bedroom, stored winter clothes in my suitcase, separated clothes and food to donate, wrote 2 postcards, tossed out the trash, did dishes, washed recyclables, filed paperwork, paid a creditcard bill, call the irs, got a fax account and sent a fax, emailed stuff, uploaded facebook pix, washed some laundry, clean out the bathroom medicine cabinet...

    My room and mind is clear and organized.

    But i woke up at like 1. Good thing it's thursdat. I was dazed and thought i missed the bus but i didn't.

    Why is it raining... lol. I'ma be starving today, i didn't eat anything :/

May 8, 2013

  • tired. stress. achievement. movin up

    Don't think i'ma cook as much anymore. gonna probably just make fried rice, lettuce wraps, smoothies, and toast (peanut butter & jelly & honey & nuts) to eat at home. tired of experimenting & hella dishes. I made some beef broth and froze it, so i guess i can just toss shit in it and make ramyeon when i don't eat out.

    anyway,
    UGH. i finally sorted out what i don't wear anymore that i'ma donate and give away.

    I still have stuff to buy.
    -socks
    -plain shirts & underwear
    -dress shirts & pants

    ...gotta get my pants hemmed. get some torn pants sewn (sp? omg..) by the someone and see if the dry cleaners can iron my stuff for a fee cuz i hate & suck at ironing.

    i'm hoping to create a simple, portable wardrove for my travels. i need to figure out where and what clothes are wrinckle free and don't lint nd shit. i dislike the amount of time it takes to maintain clothes. i almost can't wait to have a job cuz then i'd be in a uniform for a lot of the time and don't have to like worry about maintaining a wardrobe as much.

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    so i'ma open a new fax number w/ faxage.com. I HOPE it works, cuz then i can easily send documents to and from the states whenever. i read it has good reviews. FAWKING A. if they don't get my fax thih it and spend money again to get my documents to the states. freakin oh well. better than paying a huge ass tax.

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    gotta write out my resume and get other documents in line again for applying ot another job -____-;;. this sucks. it takes money to make money. i wish i found what i could turn into passive income already. lol..

    ... meh.

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    What i'm hoping to do...

    -stop buying cheap clothes unless i really need them
    -have a low maintenance wardrobe
    -have easy to prepare foods that are also healthy
    -prepare things ahead of time so there's no rushing last minute
    -have organizational systems to keep track of things to do
    -spread tasks while trying to maintain work flow w/ no interuptions to Get stuff done.
    -stay out of the house as much as possible.

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    i'm so hungry...

    i feel like the thing about cavities & not having the right nutrition is true. i don't eat enough meat in korea but whenever i stuff my face with it, my cavities heal faster.

    this sucks. lol.

    i feel like my brain requires hella calories. i don't know how, but it just burns hella calories cuz of stress, korean, teaching, and other stuff >_<;;

    at least i'm learning. wish i had a system to keep track of tasks for each area of my life. (Work, school, language, house). i think i need like a separate white board for each. i tried planner, fail. i tried separating tasts for each day. fail. ugh. i work better when i'm focused for hours on one thing. i guess one focus a day?>_< I wish i could figure myself out.

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    it was fun last weekend meeting anielle and her friends and meeting up with a friend of mine here.

    .....

    i have a new skpe language partner. she lives north of daegu and is hoping to become a flight attendent in the future. i think she needs to practice like... a lot a lot lol. but she's kewl & yeah, helps with my korean.

    i also use the italki website now for a tutor I pay for. funny how she's korean but in the states and i'm a foreigner in korea. :p.

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    i hope to take the written driver's test on the 15th. >_<. can't wait to get a car!!

    ummm, this weekend is the dream concert w/ hella artists like b2st, 4minute, infinite, and others. anielle is bringing a friend and i have others i'm bringing too. 70k won ($50) but it'll be worth it.

May 2, 2013

  • rough draft (in english)

    Dear Daejeon Immigration office in Seosan,

    I'm applying for the F-2-7 Visa. I've lived in Taean for around two years. Though I can't speak Korean well, I continue to study everyday. I hope to attend Gyeonggi University's Korean Language Program so that I can practice and live around Korean friends in that area. With the F-2-7 Visa, I hope to find a quick part time job so that I can practice my Korean more through outlets such as translation work. 

    I'm a student, so it's hard for me to find a job without my degree. I'm studying online, so I have both Korean and degree courses to study for. The reason for applying for this visa is beyond getting a job and finding money. I want to integrate into Korean society. I really like it here and want to stay here long-term to study Korean without the hassle of needing to renew my visa constantly. There are so many things I wish to do under the visa, such as volunteering my time at orphanages to legally teach English classes while pursuing my degree and to have more time to locate a part time job that doesn't take away work from other Korean nationals such as translation or multi-lingual assistance. 

    One of my dreams with continuing my education here in Korea is to build a relationship with your country and its people and sharing it with my friends and family back in the states. Even though I live in California, my city near San Francisco takes over eight hours to drive to L.A. The Korean population in my area is growing, but in my city there aren't many Koreans at all. I want to help spread awareness of Korean culture when I visit my family. I wish to renew my visa continuously and stay for over five years more here. 

    Probably one of the only reasons why I can't stay here my whole life is because I have to take care of my mother in the future because she has done a lot for our family. Even when I do go back, my mother and I have a long-term goal of opening a Pizza School in my city. My mom has always had the dream of opening a pizza restaurant, and I think that her dream can be fulfilled through Korea's Pizza School. The pizza is unique and different from the pizzas served in America. Actually, if I were to choose a restaurant, I would open one that specializes in gamjatang, my favorite dish.
    Unlike other foreigners, when looking for teaching opportunities in Korea, I actually didn't want to live and work in Seoul. The city I live in in California is a hour drive from San Francisco with a population size of Seosan. (Approximately 100,000 people). I don't like big cities but I realize that I need to move to one to meet more Korean friends and practice speaking to people interested in the same hobbies. I hope that I can reach out to rural schools in my free time with this visa and teach English for free because education is very important. I realized while in a rural area that education is hard to obtain because of the parent's work schedules and the distance that needs to be traveled to get to school. This is why I want to use the visa to also give back to rural communities like in Taean. 

    So please, if you will consider my application so that I can continue my stay here while legally seeking employment while studying here. I will probably only come back to the states once a year. I consider Korea my new home and have been blessed to have worked at such a great school. I got to intern and explore the possibility of becoming a teacher in the future, after I gain more real-world work experience to share with students. The only reason for going home next year is for my brother's high school graduation. Otherwise, this visa will work well just in case I need to enter and re-enter the country between employment just in case any family emergencies should happen. 

  • i'm so fucking pissed.

    but i only have myself to blame.

    STUPID ASS 8802 RESIDENCY FORM for working abroad!!! BULLSHIT. didn't come yet, it's been 2 months, US GOVERNMENT WTH. U LOSE MY SHIT? U DIDN'T GET THE FAX? WTF. LET ME KNOW. SHIT. SHIT.
    I shoulda just did the paperwork properly. I shoulda just fucking mailed it my god damned self instead of faxing it .WTF. WHAT THE FUCK. 
    LESSON for all u people working abroad, better turn in your all ur required forms or the governments are gonna send u a tax bill last minute unless u turn in that stupid form. paperwork first
    FML. I FUCKING PAID to get my paperwork! HOW DO YOU NOT HAVE MY PAYMENT IN THE FUCKING SYSTEM?! WTF IS THIS BULLSHIT! 

April 28, 2013

  • marriage, love, random

    i don't remember if i posted about the eatyourkimchi interview but their love is so awesome. even though i don't subscribe to channels (lol)

    i don't believe in first site but in love after becoming friends. i still haven't been in love yet. i feel like that comes after years and years of being together. getting past the point of just physical attraction. past the point of lust. sure, attraction and sexual interactions are hugely important--but you know if you love someone when you can have moments enjoying their presence, outside of that. when you can give, take, give, take back and forth. and that you want to do it, you want them to make them happy. of course that would come back in return 100 times.

    guess I've figured that stuff out. i don't think i'd want to have a bunch of physical encounters all the time (down the line)... it just doesn't have meaning if you're not both in it for the same reasons.

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    so, what do you want out of a relationship? I feel like, I want to share my life with someone and have experiences. friends are friends, lovers are lovers. i want to share the differences in my life and to know about their differences too. I want to share stories, and places, and make new memories with them. I want to spent my whole life to get to know them and make more memories and see how we change together. 

    I still don't know if I want marriage as a title yet. there's a lot of things unsettled that I need to talk to my parents about on a serious note that I never thought I'd actually do.

    There are things to discuss with people in my past and my present while trying to figure out things in life. Good thing I'm getting a good chunk of these things squared out while in my 20's :D

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    Perfect marriages. Perfect lives.

     It can exist if the puzzle is put together at the right times. When is the right time for me? I guess I'll know when I figure it out.

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    other thoughts..

    One mature thing I would like to do and change is to not belittle people. Try to look down on them or judge too easily. It's hard, but people are people. They have different circumstances. They got that way cuz of a reason and ya know what? If you gave them your time, they'd probably give you time and maybe even change. You don't have to give all your time but sometimes a couple of minutes might be just enough. It's crazy how the world works like that. You do something wrong and it changes another person's life. 

    iono, ranting.

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    anyway, here's a vid of Sandara, lol.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUXrX8iWEPY&NR=1&feature=endscreen

    i  think i posted about this but woahz, their lives. 

    I honestly think that yeah, she works hard, but that also YG is a businessman. she's pretty, knows like 3 languages and can leverage different markets. ;D. all by being just her.

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    How do you want to live your life? I've always wanted to do the right thing. There were times where I felt like I didn't. That I acted out of emotion. But the thing is, even if I did wrong, even if it was the wrong time or that it was too early, I will live to die knowing I did things with honesty. That I did what I could to keep things real. That I tried to make sure that I wasn't just giving feelings when they weren't real. That I spoke words i didn't mean. I want to be honest. There are times where I don't give the whole truth at the right time. :P . I work that way. But I still feel guilty and end up telling cuz I want to keep the trust. I can't just lie about everything (though it's quite easy to lie). 

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    I read about the culture of music business a while back (or videos) and it said that many stars that preach good morals don't follow them behind the scenes. wtf. what kind of role model is that? they truly are selling an image. what a bunch of sh*t. the real world is painted gray with different points highlighted like crazzzyyyyy.

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    fingertips on the keyboard,
    your message pops up on my phone
    no hesitation hits,
    i respond with two clicks

    unlocked and typing,

    words magically flow amongst one another
    i let out a sigh,
    and gaze back at the computer screen
    we aren't what we used to be,
    i don't want it to be what it used to be
    if i want you forever,
    we'll have to change a little every second

    for now we'll be friends,

    and see how it all ends

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April 26, 2013

  • oh like

    I ended up having to take a taxi to work. It was like 17,000 won lol. like 16~ish bucks. It's usually under or around $20 apparently.  I haven't done it before today lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

    But this only happened cuz i took forever to get outta bed and I took my time taking a shower. lawllllll

    just..

     

    I drank a fair amount last night and stayed out to noraebang but omfg it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fun. Hung out with two talk people in town. Kayla, my awesomest friend here and Christine, the new scholar. Her friends from chungnam came and yeah. (but they don't drink). And kayla invited a teacher from her school cuz he lives at the doors by the school and it's hella lonely there with nothing to do.

    Even our coffeeshop-working Korean friend dropped in for a little bit after work. But he had to leave cuz that's his life lawlll.

    Maybe I am getting stronger at drinking. Or maybe it's all just luck and proper preparation. (I ate and was hydrated before I started).

     

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    I don't wanna be here GET ME OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. 3 hours till class is over lawllllllllllllll.

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    and, i'm trying to figure out patterns. like how i procrastinate cuz things are too hard or cuz I don't stick to a plan or cuz I dont have rewards or discipline.

    And how procrastinating costs money. (taxi... buying last minute cooking things for class today.. not studying enough for the exam and having to take it again). damn. My wallet.

    I feel like I let minute slip away cuz I say I still have time in the future. I mean, I do but it would be best to use the time I have now for productive things while I'm young and have spare time to crunch in some vocab words and stuff.

    But, I'm still having fun in my 20's. But at the same time, gotta look out and work towards my future in my 20's so I can't have to work harder later. >_<;; xP.

    ugh. life.

April 25, 2013

April 24, 2013

  • u ever

    Ride ur bicycle while drunk in the middle of the night to a friend's house?? Lol @ those bumps. So fun