June 19, 2013

  • the easy life

    i don't think i'm teaching much this week or even next week cuz they're prepping for the "english festival" and learning songs so all after school stuff (lately has been cancelled).

    last week i was told to teach the kids a song. i didn't know why so i scrapped that the day after cuz they weren't learning the hokey pokey well. 
    i come in today and am told by my mentor teacher that there's an english festival next week and that i was told by the 1st grade teacher to teach the kids a song for it. i freaked.
    i didn't know what song was easy. i thought of 5 monkeys in the bed. or 10 in the bed. tried 10 in the bed today in class but it failed cuz it's too long. i finally found a song after class but now i think the science teacher (who sometimes helps out / co-teaches-ish-not really) is teaching them a different song.
    i feel bad and useless lol. but i don't really have to do shit. but i feel like a waste of money by staying in this program sometimes.. a lot of the time. the school is nice. the kids are kewl (though of course, kids and hard to handle). it's just me. i'm so not meant for this lol. i wouldve probably quit already cuz i feel like i'm not making a difference. oh well, at least i show up to teach and i don't take days off and yeah...
    soooooooo ready to finish my degree and get another job.
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    but that's just me. people have shitty ass jobs with people they hate despite the huge amounts of work they put into their job. i'm living the easy life. i just don't like that i don't feel like i'm making any difference to the kids after being here for so long. sure, their pronunciation is better and i guess more vocab and cultural stuff (cooking or whatever). . . but i feel like it's never enough. 
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    i'm gonna go study korean now, with all this free time I have... lol. i mean, for the last almost 2 years, i never had to teach them an english song for english festival. LoLLL. my other friend had to. and she had to prepare student work for an "open house". damn, i had it good at this school. LOLLLLLLL. i hope i don't get credit from the parents cuz of the song they're performing. then again, i wonder what the parents thing of the english festivals of the past almost two years. i didn't really aid in those. ㅎㅎ
    I just wanna make a difference and feel it too <_<;; =P

June 18, 2013

  • I FOUND THE educational GOLDMIND (for me)

    http://extended.nau.edu/Degrees/204/Intelligence+Studies+BAS.html

    $2500 / semester.
    Unlimited classes.
    Accredited.
    3 majors to choose from (all B.A.s):

    Computer Information Technology
    Liberal Arts
    Small Business Administration

    ... I don't care about degrees. I just need my bachelors and I'm done!! GET ME OUT OF THE EDUCATIONAL RAT RACE. I JUST WANNA WORK AND STACK MONEYYYY. (And learn about other things on my own timmeee).

    I'm just gonna choose Liberal Arts. See if hella of my classes can transfer. And Even if not, it's only $2500 for a semester! I can just cram hella classes from now till the end of next year.

    @ $212/credit, it would cost me $12,000 for another 60 credits.  If I do this option, I can do a year and a half for like only $7500 w/ out the stuuuuuuuuuupid registration fees or waiting for classes to open up.
    My mom agreed she'd pay for my tuition. I'm gonna see if I can mail info to her house.

    Then, I can come back to Korea after chillin in Hawaii next fall w/ a job! This'll be so awesome. Life just got way better for me~!

June 16, 2013

  • mmmmh

    Degree. So many jobs abroad with it and my citizenship. I'm so sad. I wanna stack money and fulfill my dreams and be debt free.

June 13, 2013

  • attendance

    i wrote the attendances wrong -_-;;. maybe i shoulda just wrote the kids names in and photo copied 'em. i already made 10 copies tho. i don't want th vice principal to think i'm wasting hella paper lol.

    just.. writing their names in korean takes a million years for me. lol.
    anyway. thinking about that girl again. lame. 
    back to my pomodoro and updating my saturday class's attendance. hopefully by tonight, i'll finish all this paperwork & my friend can help me for the next TOPIK test so I can get more focused with my Korean. been slacking for two months. 

    But, I'm reading this manwha and it reminds me of the love hina manga days, lol. this one is in a highschool though. but with enough action, awkwardness, and perviness to keep me reading, lol. after finishing this manhwa, i guess i'll start watching that kdrama so i can work on my listening skills.

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    more serious questions and topics.
    i'm kinda glad I didn't go after some random major in music or language or that stuff. (though, i haven't finished much of my degree due to degree hopping). i don't have enough passion in that. my thing is, even if i do finish my degree and get a good job at an export company or document editing at an engineering firm, or even just go back to teaching making hella dough... i still wish I had a passion. I have so many things to try but I haven't given them a chance. 

    I still want some forms of expression in..

    sports
    arts
    music.
    the thing is, i see some teachers here that didn't pursue something related to their degree/passion and ended up teaching..haha. i read a thing that there's a sports major that korean guys go after when they dream of becoming a soccer player. dunno if that's true about the coffeeshop dude, but his major was in something sports-related and he's working in his sister's coffeeshop like 7 days a week from like 6am to 10pm (and he finishes cleaning by 11 or 12). Sometimes, I feel like she opened it up just for him to work...lol.
    ...
    Would you ever give up pursuing a passion for love? I mean, the longer you're with the person, the longer you have to work things out. we don't always have to have a bite of all of the cake as long as we enjoy most of it? right? :P .. .hahaha. 
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    guess i can do something with my youtube channel.
    also, i'm having more interest in learning portuguese. i don't have to learn a new alphabet-per se and it just sounds awesome! i've always wanted to learn another european language but nothing appeals to me like portuguese.  

    I like it cuz, it's a language with many dialects around the world (south america, africa, asia (macau, malaysia) .. i don't know much about the culture and haven't experienced it first hand, and it could be useful in the future. it's kind of the mysterious-kewl language that i wanna look into. 

    i still wanna learn chinese but man, all that work for the tones & characters? i'm not ready yet. maybe when i'm 30. I also wanna learn persian. I've always wanted to look into a middle eastern language and the fact that iran is sorta isolated is appealing to me. I like forbidden things.. LoL. Like how I wanna go to southern Philippines.. but probably just Davao where it's "safer?" Iono. dude.

June 12, 2013

  • oh yeahh/ohhh noooo~

    I got my driver's license!!! Time to go on road trips~!!!

    Lol.

    On a side note, i slept in the jimjilbang. It wasnt the best sleep. I had a mini nightmare where the girl i have a crush on told me to stop like hugging her / and embracing her cuz she has a boyfriend. Lol.

    I've never dreamt about anyone like that. Lol. I mean, irl, she does have a boyfriend. But i wont say anything and hopefully my crush goes away by the time i move or if she goes back to the states. At the moment i'm finding things unnattractive -friendzoning- about her to make it stop lol. It's mean but :P . I dont think itll stop. It seems i will always have some kind of emotions to someone cuz of iono lol. Attachment issues? I always wanna be with someone even though im not ready for anything serious? Iono lame. I think i just got too much tine on my hands. I dont think of her when working but when i have time.. like on the bus or b4 i sleep or something, she pops up. That happens with most people i might have a thing for i guess :P . Help me~

June 8, 2013

  • we won't

    Struck by your face
    you keep me in a daze

    a smile so innocent
    a body to torment

    hidden secrets revealed
    we keep our lips sealed

    a meeting unexpected
    a friendship to be regretted

    if only i was ready for it
    if only i was prepared for it

    good timing was never a thing
    always a slight miss every swing

    a perfect game can't be had
    i guess i can't get too

    eyes towards the prize
    gotta consult the wise

    i'll be ready for the next time
    then i can call that person mine

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    sigh.. i met a korean girl. she's been in the states and speaks fluent english and might even be staying here longer if she doesn't get accepted into her grad program.

    she's super attractive. damn, she's so hot when all dressed up w/ out her glasses. omfg.
    and she's got so much experience. (yeah, she's older). can you say "누나 너무 예뻐?!"(noona nomoo yeppo.. that shine song) lol..

    but she's christian (dunno what kind) and is going out with someone in the states and might be leaving to go back if she's accepted.

    but we're good friends now. sucks, i got friend zoned. but i mean, i told her everything about my relationships and private details. but she's so awesome that she listened to it all!! wtf! i wish i could marry this chick! haha oh well.

    oh well, hopefully the attraction wares away. i mean, i got friend zoned. maybe it'll go away when i see her in her glasses again and looking normal and like she's my older sister.

    and, i'm looking for someone not religious but still understanding of religion.

    so, i guess right now for a serious relationshp i want a girl that's:

    not filipino
    probably korean
    shorter than me

    not too picky about food
    can do spicy food
    not really into sports (cuz i'm not) but doesn't mind playing for fun once in a while :P
    pretty (derr)
    not girly-girly
    maybe -bi / open
    has some kind of artsy hobby
    isn't working in the medical field
    probably majored in something scientific (B.S. or M.S.)
    probably not religious (iono, i still have to contemplate this.. i mean church every sunday can't be too bad but freaking like, i have flashbacks of Sunday mass at the catholic church. I HATED IT SO BAD. I AVOID IT. I GET FIDGITY EVEN DURING XMAS MASS. I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT. WHAT A WASTE OF TIME. INCLUDING CCD (sorta like religion) class?! WTH. I mean, I got to bond with Cheryl and Cat but still..
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    Don't u hate when u meet someone and u think they're just perfect? I don't wanna fall into that illusion anymore. I'm trying to get the balance and figuring out what matters to me most in a serious relationship but I still don't know exactly what I want in life. Would I be ok marrying b4 30? Do I want kids? Do i want kids my own blood? Would I adopt? Would I do both? Would I live in the states? How can I possibly support my family? (Or at least make enough money so that money isn't a problem in the relationship?)
    Boo, I'm still exploring. At least I'm honest that I'm not ready for something serious. Even though it's something that I eventually want. At least I know that I want something. Just gotta figure out what else I want.
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    But damn, she's so pretty when dolled up. holy. shit. 

    But I get to friend-zone her too. right? =P Guys can just be friends LOL. doesn't mean I don't think she's attractive tho :P . LoL.

    but, what turns me off is her probably scary Korean dad that wants someone who graduated from a top school or something with a high paid job, and the fact that I would need to participate in religious traditions again that I don't personally appreciate @_@;; and that's christian. but in korea, they go to service during the week too. o_O;; lol and lots of those christians don't drink "cuz of their religion". the asian dramas don't exaggerate that much when it comes to certain korean-christians. lol....
    there's other fish in the sea, i'm just admiring this really kewl one that i've passed by.. cuz i'm a fish too. i need to go to the fish gym and make myself over. 
    --personality, career, education, appearance, sociableness.. damn, i got lots of work for myself to go under. i guess the only good part of me is that i care about my friends / family, am ambitious, and that i try to be honest... :P most of the time if it's not my mom. LOL.
    -bubble bubble-

June 6, 2013

  • lack of sleep.

    monday night - ~3hrs + 1.5hr on the bus back to taean early in the morning

    tuesday night- shit, i don't remember what kept me up
    wednesday night - card games (uno & korean 1 card) at dio (a cafe)w/ the owner,some kid, kayla and i... went to visit Tess (a filipina in town), went to visit erica & her church friends she had over her house & we introduced BS to them. (We called it "lie".. lol).
    thursday night - it's like 1.36 but i got back from karaoke around midnight, ate, loofed around and packed stuff for my driver's stuff tomorrow morning..6:30am bus.. i'm so zombied right now. i have to wake up at 5:30 to get ready -__________-;;
    tagged along a trip w/ Kayla & her school to the formal "presidential summer home" that presidents used to have till one found it ridiculous and opened it to the public and now it's just tourist thing w/ trails. 
    holy shit dude this school.

    9am chicken and beer.

    pre-lunch soju shot 
    lunch + soju
    bus ride to dinner soju
    dinner + makkeolli (rice wine)
    soju back to Taean. (i was only given small amounts as requested by Kayla and I lol.. my level is so loww).
    but holy shit, that's hella soju. lmao. 
    good thing i was able to pace my drinking.
    and then i had like a can of beer at norabang w/ kayla & 경한 (kyung han), the 6th grade temp teacher at her school. (i think we're like a year older lol). i hope he doesn't feel like he's being forced to noraebang cuz we're older :P
    and now..zZz.
    i finally have to turn on my fan to sleep. it's a little warm nowadays. goodthing i don't live inland. i'd be frying by now. 
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    P.S. i want xanga to survive. maybe i can start blogging about Korea on Xanga in the future too :]. 

    It would also be nice to own Xanga one day, LOL. And to work on the Yelp team to expand it internationally :D . I think I found my future jobs in the states ^_^. ㅋ

June 4, 2013

  • getting fat

    I didnt eat at home. Ate at school and free 2 sandwiches at the pottery class. After, went to our friend's cafein the terminal and gave him an extra sandwich i stole err.. that was lef tover. I got kiwi juive and he gave me a free 단 호박 파우치.. like a sweet pumpkin sandwich/pouch that i always get lol.

    Omg all the foooood.

    Anyway..
    한국어 공부하는게 너무 어려워! 나의 친구 가 더 배워서 그 레벨가 너무 높아!! I'm falling behind lol. My friends are hella passing me.

    But right now, I'm getting used to immersing myself in Koean and trying to make it fun again so i can bounce back to studying. I'm reading a comic and decided not to translate words i dont know. I get most of the story thru cues from the pix and from words i already know. It'll be my first Korean comic~

    I think i also found a drama i can watch w/ out subtitles.

    A friend put a link to the audio of dramas, so i picked one and listen to it from time to time when i'm bored ofy music nd korean language podcasts. GROSS.

    next is to search up tutorials and scandalous stuff on the internet on naver(a korean search engine).. lol.

June 2, 2013

  • i wanna feel and look good

    I hate feeling like i'm not good enough. I wanna feel attractive. I wanna feel active. I wanna feel involved.

    I'm still a home body. I cant wait to move to the city and have access to things to do and the ommunities.

    Skateboard
    Ride bikes
    Indoor rock climbing
    Dance classes
    Language exchanges
    Workout buddies
    Korean classes

    ...

    I'm thinking of going on a "diet." No solid foods at home. Only shakes and water. I eat the school lunch anyway. I hate when i'm always full of food, digesting, and having food cravings.

    Waste of time, money, and energy. Literally, burning energy thinking about food, digesting it all..and all the money wasted on buffets, steaks, western food. And all that prep time~

    It's probably cheaper to buy juice or something like that instead of kimbap err 2.

    Ugh. Haven't changed my lifestyle that much in korea. I feel like i'm not working hard enough now so i can be lazy later :/